You know that thing where your so damn busy that you just think, a few more hours would help! I got confirmation last week that I have a place on the next NVQ3 intake which is great news because its important for my job … but when im still doing two Open University courses which equate to full time study in itself, working part time, being a mummy, trying to keep up with some relative social life, training for London to Brighton (thats a whole other post), finding snippets of ‘me time’ here and there, doing a 365 project … yeah things are rather busy.
Don’t get me wrong. I love busy. I thrive off busy. But at the moment I’m struggling to keep up with the endless tidying that comes with a 6 year old and 18 month old. To keep up with finding the time to do all the reading. To go to sleep… yeah the insomnia has taken hold again. I spend my nights lying in bed thinking about work.
Its scary how far I’ve come in terms of my job in 6 months. Within 3 months I had got a new job at the next level. In a management position. That thought terrifies me. Like really terrifies me. I love what I do. And I know I know what I’m doing. I’ve done all the theory afterall. And the practical stuff you pick up along the way. But I still find it hard to believe that within 3 months of my first ‘paid’ job that I stepped up a level! A few people have even made predictions of how long it will take me to get to the next level. Although I’ve got no plans to do that anytime soon. That will be for when littlest starts school I reckon.
I’m lucky that I have a job I love and am passionate about. I look forward to going to work. The young people I work with are awesome as are my colleauges, I dont think I would do my job as well as I do if I didn’t enjoy it. I know I’m incredibly lucky in that respect.
I know I’ll juggle everything. Because I always do. I just have to not beat myself up about it when I don’t respond to emails for a few days. Or leave the washing up one night. Its about grabbing chances to read when on the train. Or the loo!