So during my pregnancy I made no secret of my desire to breastfeed, my guilt over not breastfeeding Preschooler and the preparations I put into place to hopefully help me this time around.
Five weeks after moo was born and where are we?
Well as of yet we haven’t touched a bottle! Its been a complete rollercoaster, as expected. There have been times when I have wanted to just pack it in but then at other times when he latches on well I wonder why I have considered stopping!
His first feed in hospital was great, we got to HDU and the nursery nurse was there ready to help him latch on although he didn’t need much assistance in that department then. After that initially he was feeding every 4-5 hours for the first few days and we had a great deal of difficulty with his latch, he was being stubborn and didn’t want to open his mouth big enough, or at all if he really wasn’t in the mood for a feed! By night 2 my nipples were raw and I was an emotional wreck having seen preschooler that day and was missing him so I begged the midwife to help me express for him. We expressed 5ml colostrum in half an hour and she was surprised at how much I had and how rich it was. She syringe fed it to moo and by the morning having done that for night feeds I felt ready to attempt feeding again. I knew I had to If I wanted to go home that day! We did and homeward bound we were.
On day 4 my boobs were like a pair of rocks and moo wouldn’t/couldn’t latch on. The visiting midwife that day advised had expressing some off to soften them a bit! So for a while we tried that. In the end a midwife advised that because I had such a huge amount of milk that moo wasn’t using to express that and freeze it so we did that for a while.
Since then we are now at week five. As my twitter followers know we are still fighting the latch. If he goes on well he quickly repositions himself to mean he is merely sucking the nipple! Twitter has however been a fantastic source of support and I can’t thank the twitter mummies whove given me tips enough!
We’re going back to try and see the feeding midwife again and see if they can help anymore although previously the one I have seen wasn’t helpful! I also need to try the NCT line I think.
However through all the pain and toe curling I haven’t considered stopping! The hv asked what formula I planned to use, my answer? Haven’t even thought about it! I know the pain will get better and the benefits such as not needing to take bottles out with us etc as well as feeding being free far outweigh the pain!
It’s just a case of persevering. She says!