I’ve written a lot about breastfeeding. Looking back through this category (See here) you can see that its something I’m pretty blinkin passionate about. And even at 19 months I still love it. I love the way he comes up to me and requests ‘Booooob’ and even signs ‘Please’, melts your heart that you just cant refuse it! But recently we went through a stage where that was like every 5 minutes. And its one thing having a newborn baby that does feed properly snuggled up to your side peacefully and a toddler who wants to comfort suckle but isn’t actually getting any milk whilst climbing all over you and sticking his feet in your face etc. It begun to wear a bit thin with the frequency of it!
I spoke to some of my fellow breastfeeding mums that I know who had fed or were still feeding at 2/3/4yrs etc and they all reminded me that the needs of Mum are just as important as the needs of the little person and sometimes you get a bit touched out, and thats ok. They gave me some great suggestions about trying to read a book with him, or offering him a drink of water and a snack etc. Since doing that we’ve struck a much better balance! Its still at least once an hour when we are at home but its not the ten times an hour that it was which makes such a difference. Its just nicer for me and him as he then feeds properly and gets more snuggly with it.
Initially when I realised I was getting irritated with how frequently he was feeding I felt really guilty about it but then the more I spoke with other mums and realised it is a two way process I didn’t feel so bad then. Still sometimes he wont accept a story or a drink of water and will just sit and screech ‘BOOOOOOOB’ at the top of his lungs whilst pulling at my top until I give in but at least then I know he REALLY wants it.
I know so many mums of babies the same age who say oh we only feed at night now. And that kinda makes me sad really. I know he will reduce his feeds over time. He already tends not to feed anymore if we are out, or its becoming more of a rarity. And that always feels strange.
Looking back to those early days when I was pregnant and so determined that I would feed for 6 weeks and then see where it went I am so bloody glad that I’ve managed to keep on going. Determination gets you everywhere!