Anyone following me on social media, especially instagram, will know I have been struggling with my marathon training. Mentally really more than physically. On Monday I set out for a 14 mile run. It was a 10 mile loop and a smaller 4 mile one. The 10 mile finished at the car. Rather than passing the car and doing the 4 … I finished at 10. Physically I could have easily carried on! I was just bored! I had tried 3 different podcasts, music too, and nothing was satisfying my boredom!
I started to seriously doubt if I should be continuing training when I am struggling with it so much. But then I have my other reasons why I want to continue.
- Not carry on because I am not enjoying running.
- Carry on because I won’t be able to do another marathon for at least 2 years due to uni.
- Don’t carry on because the time goal I want to get is slipping further away with every run I skip or cut short.
- Carry on because I have learnt a lot from my previous 3 marathons and know everything I should do right.
In the end after lots of chats with numerous different friends about how I would feel if I DIDN’T run it and the fact I would probably regret that decision I decided to push on. Tomorrow I am going to sit down and review my training plan. I’m also going to try and get out and run with some friends if possible as I haven’t done that in a long time. Maybe just maybe I can get that time goal! And even if I don’t it is a course I have run before, I know where the hills are, I know what the stretch out to the power station is like, I know there are lots of out and back sections to be able to spot friends on.
Ultimately this is my final chance for a while to see through a marathon. Life will be firmly paused from September for I don’t know how long. I’d love to say its now or never, its not. Its now or not for a good few years!